Balancing the Tight Rope

In their books, well-known mediums tell stories about passing messages from Spirit to their clients.  They write about people who have come to them seeking advice or wanting to connect with a passed loved one.  These people are primed and at least slightly open to hearing what the medium has to say.  Celebrity medium Rebecca Rosen doesn't share information unless she is doing a reading. She draws a line between her professional and personal life which she feels is fair.

For me, the boundary lines are little more blurry.  Since I don't do readings, most of the messages I receive are unsolicited. When I'm asked to pass along a message, the feeling or need to share doesn't go away, until the message has been sent.  Often, it is one of love and peace and there is no harm in sharing; it's just, the receiver isn't expecting it.  

Some times, a person wants to know why Spirit has come to me and not to them directly.  I'm guessing that Spirit has tried to connect in numerous ways to let a person know they are around. I just happen to be able to hear and Spirit is so eager to make contact they will use any portal available.  Think of me as a receptionist, taking the calls and passing on the messages.  Ironic that I’ve done administrative assistant work on and off throughout my life and one of the things I dislike the most, is answering the phone for others!!

In this case, I don’t mind "taking calls" from Spirit.  Just wish I could find a way to do it without catching people off guard. It's like walking a tight rope trying to balance between two worlds, aware of both, communicating with both, and just trying to stay on the line.

You know one great thing about passing messages along?  Spirit always comes back to thank me for connecting them with their loved one. When Spirit returns, my work is done – mission accomplished.  Whew!

I used to be afraid to share messages, but not anymore.  I know eventually this type of communication will become commonplace. Like the Internet and email, it’s just a matter of time.

The Proof of the Pudding Part 3 - The Messengers

Guess, what?  The doves I mentioned last week are still in our front yard!  And there are 3 of them – a mother and two baby doves.  As each day passes and they continue to stay with us, I can’t help but wonder if they are here for a special reason.  Yes, the nest is most likely up in one of our trees.  Yes, our newly planted garden is the perfect place for doves to hang out.  Yes, the babies wait in the protection of our yard for the mother to feed them.  But, why our yard and why now?!  

They are so not afraid of us.  We sprinkle bird seed, we watch them, walk past them, we photograph them, drive up and park in front of them.  And, they just keep hanging out.

The more I contemplate their presence, the more I sense they are related to the letter in some way.  Then, today while watching them, I heard the faintest voice say, “When the birds fly, the letter will come.”   And that’s when I realized there are 3 of them!  THREE.  So, the number 3 is legit.  The letter could come in any number of days including or related to the number 3 – 13, 23, 33, 43, 113, and so on… But, the doves are a sign of reassurance, they are messengers, they are symbols of peace and love.  And, they too are waiting.

Waiting until they are old enough to fly on their own. Waiting until they are old enough to eat on their own.  Waiting until they are old enough to survive on their own.  These doves tell their own story, apart from the role in my other worldly tale. 

Some days, I feel like I’m living in a twilight zone.  Everything is interconnected and interwoven in amazing ways.  Life will never look the same again.

Hazards of Being a Plugged In Mom

I’ve heard that moms have this extra sense about their children, especially when their kids need help.  It’s as if we’re still connected to them by an umbilical cord of sorts.  So, what happens when mom radar is amped up?

Some months ago, one of my first premonitions involved my daughter.  In my mind’s eye, I saw a full-color vivid image of her being hit in the stomach with a ball.  I couldn’t tell if she had been hurt and I assumed it was an image of something happening at that moment.  I knew she was playing kickball at after-care, so fully expected to hear about it when I arrived for pick-up.  Nothing.  Another day went by and nothing.  Realized the vision was a foretelling, but had no idea when it would play out.  No sign of danger so I wasn’t overly concerned.

About two weeks later, my daughter came home from soccer practice and told me she had been hit with the ball in the stomach. When she showed me how, it looked just the same as I had seen it in my mind.  She wasn’t hurt.

The second time something like this happened - my daughter was at a small entertainment park celebrating her cousin’s birthday.  I was getting ready to pick her up when I sensed something was happening with her.  I saw her standing with other kids around her.  I couldn’t tell if there was an altercation, but the feeling went away with no signs of apparent danger, so again tried not to worry too much.  Shortly after, I texted my brother to say I was on the way to pick her up.  My brother texted back to say they were heading to our house, so I turned around and went home.

I met them at our house, a little anxious to find out if anything had happened.  The minute my daughter got out of the car, she complained about having to leave the park before she won this DSL she wanted from one of those games with the mechanical arm used to grab prizes.  Apparently, she spent a good portion of her afternoon at this game and was upset that she didn’t win.  Later, I realized that I had seen her standing at this arcade game and the reflection on the glass showed other kids standing around behind her.  

Yesterday, it happened again.  While my husband and daughter were out rollerblading together, I missed a call from them on my cell phone.  I tried to call back several times but no answer.  It wouldn’t be the first time I’d been called to come get my husband for one reason or another, so I kept trying to reach them.  Then, I saw this vision of them rollerblading on the path and sensed something to do with running into a bike.  Mom worry set in and I imagined one of them had collided with a bike and needed help.  But, no signs of danger, just the normal nervousness any mom might feel if they thought something might have happened to their family.

Turns out a guy on a motorbike recognized my husband and pulled up onto the bike path to greet him.  They had lived together 25 years ago in a town 1 hour south and had lost touch. My husband thought the biker was crazy for riding up onto the path, until he saw who it was – small world. He had called to tell me about his exciting reunion with an old friend.  He did explain that if something urgent happened, he would have left a message.  Of course, I was using extra sensory perception, not logic, so that thought never occurred to me.

Well, as “informed”, my daughter did get hit with a ball; she did experience some trouble at the game park; and she did “run into a bike.”  Nothing out of the ordinary – just regular every day stuff.  So, what’s a mom with a hyped up antenna to do?!  After all, my daughter is only eight years old – we’ve got a LONG way to go!

My first thought was okay – she’s definitely getting her own cell phone when she’s old enough, so I can check in whenever I get a weird vibe.  I’m going to drive her crazy!!

My next thought was okay – I need to get way better at this so I know what’s really going on.  Now I have even more reason to be accurate! 

Even considered honing our mental telepathy skills - maybe we could practice!!

And then my final and most practical thoughts were - have confidence that if a true emergency were to happen, I will know about it when I need to.  Use all my senses, including the first five, to assess a situation.  And like any mom, trust my gut, as complicated as that may be.

Today's Words of Wisdom from The Universe:

Ask and you shall receive. Seek and you shall find. Trust and you shall have it all.

The Proof of the Pudding Part 2 - The Telephone Game

Lots of incoming traffic ever since news of the manuscript hit the "Spirit Net."  So many messages, I became a little unsure of what was really going on. Planned to just watch events unfold.  Then yesterday, curiosity got the best of me and I asked for some clarity.  Decided to meditate briefly to get re-centered and back on track.

To get ready, used Rebecca Rosen's White Light Protection Meditation from her national bestseller, "Spirited: Unlock Your Psychic Self and Change Your Life.”  Surrounded myself by a protective white bubble, invited my Spirit Guides, passed love ones, and Archangel Michael to protect and guide me as Rebecca Rosen suggests, and began to meditate.  Thought it might be interesting to post the conversations I had with Spirit:

Q: I am seeking advice from my Spirit Guides, particularly Serena and Milton if you are available.  I would like to know if the messages I’ve received all week about the manuscript are true.  I seek your help in re-centering my thoughts and maintaining a strong, positive outlook.

Serena answered first.

A: There is good news on the way.  You will hear very soon.  Fill yourself with positive light and wait.  Enjoy the moment. 

Q: Does the publisher like the manuscript?

A: They love it.

Q: Will they publish it?

A: That remains to be seen.

Q: Will I need to send it to another publisher?

A: Possibly.

Q: Why all the congratulations prior to my receiving the actual news in earth time?

A: Good news is hard to contain.  Because you are aware, you can perceive in real time. Once the news is solidified, it has been sent through the Universe and you are able to pick up on it.  Enjoy.

Q: Serena, is Milton there?

A: He will come. Listen for him.

Q: Thank you so much for your words of wisdom.  I am grateful for your presence in my life. I have to go now. 

A: God Bless.

Later this morning, Milton stopped by and our conversation went something like this.  I wasn’t at the computer so this is what I remember:

Q: Milton?!

A: Dear, your bubble is working quite well.  (He’s referring to the white light protection bubble.)

Q: Milton, do you have any news about the publisher?

A: Pause.   

Q: Milton did the editor read the manuscript?

A: Pause. 

Q: Did the editor review it?

A: Yes, she's reviewed it. It’s on her desk.

Q: She hasn’t read it?

A: Not sure how to proceed.  There is good news!  Live in the moment.  Enjoy. 

Q: So what about the letter coming in 3 days?

A: It might take a bit longer.  You really should be more careful of your sources.

Q: Thank you, Milton.

A: There is good news!

Spirit tends to talk in code.  It’s like the oracle in Rick Riordan’s Lightning Thief or Delphine the snail in Barbie’s Mermaidia.  They talk in riddle and sound just like Chinese fortune cookies! 

And then the whole mental telepathy thing makes it even more confusing.  When I’m not meditating the interaction happens within seconds. Thoughts transmit so quickly you’re not sure who said what.  Did you say it or did they say it?  Are your transmissions overlapping? It’s easy to jump to conclusions.  Thoughts, images, emotions and words all coming through to form what you think is the message.  And even then, it's a best guess.

Shortly after the conversation with Milton, my husband came home from lunch and saw a dove sitting in our front walkway.  He was able to walk past it into the house.  It just sat there, letting us look at it through the window.  My daughter and I even walked past it as it continued to sit.  Then, it casually walked around the driveway and off into the yard. I felt it was sent as a positive sign, a reassurance or validation of some kind.

Later in the day, an airplane flew above us, crossing our path.  As I looked up, FEDEX came to mind.  Another sign or clue perhaps?

This will hopefully all make sense sooner than later.  Guess it's part of learning, right?! Maybe communication with Spirit will always be like this.  Continual guidance is provided without set answers so that you can still live your own life making your own choices.  In the end, we’re all just trying to reach out and connect with one another as best we can.

What's in the Title?

I'm having one of those goose bump moments - a huge AHA - so decided to add this extra post for the week.  Several times when writing this blog, the title of the post came out of the blue.  I never give much thought to the titles, but in several instances I used them without truly getting the meaning.

Here are a few posts with ambiguous titles (they tend to be the more creative ones):

THE POWER OF TWO
This blog describes how I am connected to significant people and places by the number two.  Questions arise about the meaning - are we super-linked?  Since then, I've noticed that the psychic connection to these people is more powerful than my experience with others.  The ability to connect with their Spirit Guides, deceased family and friends, with their souls is very strong and very clear.  There is power to the connection!

CROSSING WIRES
In this blog, there are messages coming in that don't make sense.  Originally, I thought the title referred to an inability to hear or listen to what was coming in.  But later, the meaning of the "non-sense" messages became clear.  Two different messages were coming in at the same time - crossing one another!!

THE PROOF OF THE PUDDING
This most recent blog about testing a premonition was originally titled, "There's Proof in the Pudding." Curious to know the true meaning of the phrase, I googled it discovering the actual saying to be "The proof of the pudding is in the eating".  In other words, some things can only be tested through first-hand experience.  You can read about it, hear about it, theorize about it, document it, but only when you hear it, see it, sense it for yourself will you truly understand it.

So, what's in the title? Apparently, an answer.  How cool is that?!

The Proof of the Pudding

My husband and I were talking at dinner last night about the difficulty in scientifically proving the validity of extra-sensory experience and ability.  Studies have been and are currently being conducted, but the concept is still considered out-of-the-norm.  

Yesterday, I woke up to some very excited voices.  The Spirit Guides in my life were going on about a letter that was on its way.  I knew at once, they were referring to a letter from the publisher about the manuscript.  I asked Serena, my writing Guide, how long it would take for the letter to come - knowing that time for Spirit is not the same as earth time.  She said DAYS!  Several cheers and words of encouragement from the Universe ensued throughout the day.  It’s pretty cool when Spirit applauds!  You know you’ve done something right.

Well, here we have a premonition. I couldn't help but wonder if there was a way to prove that my sources are not from the earth plane.  Can I show that this is not just wishful thinking on my part but real communication of the “otherly” kind?  

Let’s say we could prove I’ve had no prior contact with the publisher except for submitting the manuscript via US mail.  My cell phone calls are logged, land line calls are logged, emails can be tracked.  We can verify that I have no acquaintances or friends of friends at the publishing house who could have called me ahead of time. And no, I do not have the letter in my hand!  Is there any other way to sound-proof this validation “experiment”?  

I was about to post this blog last night, but something held me back.  This particular publisher only makes contact if they are interested in your work.  I assumed their letter would state their interest in the manuscript I sent them.  But, something didn’t gel.  Besides, how much of an experiment is this if there is a 50% chance of being right?  A letter is on the way or it's not.  Not much different than tossing a coin.  We need more detailed information.

Went to bed without posting and in the early hours of the morning while half asleep, I heard someone whispering in my head.  She (no idea who) said that the letter would come in 3 days time.  The publisher loves the manuscript but feels it doesn’t quite meet their needs.  They are inviting me to submit something else to them. (!) The manuscript is worthy of being published and they will encourage me to submit it to niche publishers (the manuscript has a strong ethnic bent).  The voice told me the letter will come from an editor named Susan M. - I couldn’t quite make out the last name.  

To complicate matters even more, Lola Rea keeps referring to some surprise and she won't tell me what it is. 

Much of this feels like a blind leap of faith. It’s SO much fun believing that our "imaginary worlds" are real - I think they are.  With it come comfort, hope and even joy. BTW, this stuff still gives me the chills. I never cease to be amazed by the power and brilliance of the Universe.

What's going to happen next?  Not sure, but stay tuned!!

What's Up with the Stones?

I felt somewhat blue last week, maybe coming down off the high of submitting, and felt a lot of negative thoughts and energy coming my way.  I think it is related in some way to the manuscript, but I don’t want to over-analyze the source of negativity - doing that just gives it more power.

Months ago, when first learning about all of this “stuff,” I visited a New Age bookstore.  I spent a long time just browsing the aisles, studying the book titles and various divination tools.  It was all so new to me, still is.  To support the store, I bought a variety of gemstones.  I picked out ones that were used to protect as I was a bit scared of what was going on in my head. 

The employee was knowledgeable and helpful.  He told me to wear them within my energy field.  Some women carry the stones in their purse, some wear them on a pouch around their neck and some even wear them tucked inside their bra.  When I got home, I put the stones in a dish of sea salts to cleanse them (googled how to take care of crystal/gemstones), and forgot about them.  I dismissed them as purely symbolic.

Well, guess what?! They work!  After several days of feeling like a dart board with a bull’s eye on my forehead, I remembered the stones and decided it was time to try them out – anything can help, right?  I rinsed them with cold water (another cleansing method) and put two black onyx stones, one on either side of my bra.  Turns out that one of my favorite colors to wear, black, is protective.  Side note: I wore so much black in high school, a friend nicknamed me the “girl in black.”  And this was all before goth became popular.  I wasn’t goth though, just liked wearing the color.

Maybe it’s psychological, but I could feel the protective power of these stones shortly after I started wearing them.  I immediately felt “lighter” as if energy was bouncing off, as if there was a force field around me, acting as a repellent.  I felt more positive, like I could be myself without being affected by the thoughts and behavior of others.  Nothing bothered me! 

Having said that, I don’t think the stones can work alone.  But, I do think they make it easier for one to stay positive and not take in surrounding negativity.

The color black absorbs light, so rather than reflecting energy, perhaps the black stones absorb it, therefore drawing outside energy towards it and away from you.  I used to wear a simple black onyx ring. Maybe it's time to find a new one.

There is so much to know.  People have written about the properties of crystals and gemstones and how they conduct and interact with energy.  It’s time to hit the books again.  Learning is never ending.